Life's Turns

Big, BIG, Biggest month ever. I'm not sure my life could be more dwarfed as the days roll over me.
My first born daughter moved a half of a world away...great joy in the opportunities for her young family in their potential growth and for me in travels! "Roll with it Baby."
My eldest brother become so ill that he thought it was a heart attack! Instead, it was "only" the stresses of life and work. He was too busy to be sure he was taking his high blood pressure and high cholestrol pills and he became very low. Spent 7 days at home...unheard of behavior and has worked almost 7 hours in the last two days. I have never known life without him. I can't even contemplate it.
My busiest brother has pneumonia. His stress with his former business partners and continuing lawsuits won over his good spirits. He wouldn't know Stevie Winwood to roll with it anymore than I would know some rap star. He also wouldn't know how to slow down and enjoy it. He was named after a cartoon character - Tom Terrific - who flew everywhere and tried to fix everything with many misadventures. Very apt.
I miss Evelyn. I even miss my other siblings. It is hard to have them dead to you over stupid things. Irreversible events. Family dysfunction. But I get lonely for what should have been.
Today, the daughter of an old friend tracked me down to say her mother asked to find me so she could say thank you for our friendship. Gail developed MS the year after she was crowned MIss North Platte and was the runner up for Miss Nebraska. She fought it forty years. In rest homes the last 15. I kissed her cheek, wished her a peaceful journey and she smiled in her semi-conscious state.
Life is so big. So without road maps. Completely unpredictable.
But God is good. When it seems tough, He reminds you of what is important. He shows how people are more meaningful and love is big, bigger, Best!